Saturday, December 1, 2012

Christmas. Like all big problems, it's a gender thing.

     Today is the day I choose to officially recognize that Christmas is coming, that the onslaught of capitalism at its worst, that a calendar packed to bursting with Christmas events, that mounds and mounds of rich, inexplicably unhealthy food are all unavoidable.
     Contrary to what people think of me up until today, I actually love Christmas. AT Christmas.
     Some of you agree with my view of today, some will say that I'm at least a month behind in my comfort and joy, and still others will scoff that it's not even December 23rd yet, what's all this Christmas nonsense?
     It's all a matter of choice, but of late I've taken note that the debate over the so-called Christmas Creep--no, not Uncle Ernie, the tendency of businesses to drop the flag on the season earlier and earlier every year--has intensified. And, as with most good fights, it's a he said/she said sorta deal.
     The whole thing is just a front on which a battle of the sexes is being fought. Men feel one way about the season that 'tis, women another. It's almost to a rule. Don't worry, though, I'm not going to bore you with silly things like data and research, instead I'll just supply anecdotes from my own marriage, the Internet, and radio.
     As all things evil usually do, this one starts at Wal-Mart. That bastion of the capitalist overindulgence, that new American church, that great teat at which the cheap and the self-hating choose to suckle, it's where you'll see the demand that Christmas start in November. Oh, and also at Tim Hortons, that bastion of blue collar Canadian-ness. These are the two businesses at which you are GUARANTEED to see Christmas decorations and specials on November 1st. For them, Labour Day to March 18 is pretty much a steady stream of theme days and decorations.
     There's always a bit of dissension, though it's usually just delivered with a shrug. This year, it got so vocal that Shoppers Drug Mart actually postponed playing Christmas carols for a while. The revolution works! Well, it worked for pre-teen November, but it seems that nothing can stop the tinsel once Remembrance Day has been given its half-hearted due. (Maybe they should start giving poppy-shaped coupons at Best Buy to awaken interest.)
     There are people who say the more Christmas the better, and the sooner. They put up their trees as they take down their Jack O Lanterns, they wear reindeer sweaters with poppies on them, they start being nicer in line ups because the season is all up on us, even thought they haven't even changed their clocks from Daylight Savings yet. These people, it appears, are mostly women.
     Then there are those who curse at the sight of any combination of green and red, who refuse to discuss holiday plans before Grey Cup, and feel that doing any Christmas shopping prior to December 21st would be stupid because maybe, just maybe, the Mayans were right--why risk it? These, as I've discovered, are men.
     I am a man. I do like Christmas, a lot. I just like it when it's supposed to be.
     So, in our defence:
     We like Christmas. Many of us even love it. Christmas Day is one of the most magical days of the year, and a few (myself) even love Christmas Eve--I actually prefer it; foreplay is sometimes better than fulfillment. But, Chaysis, have you never heard that great things are best in small doses? You don't do it with chocolate and wine, you tell us not to do it with beer and chicken wings, so why is it okay to gag ourselves, to gorge ourselves on Christmas?
     Through November--one of my favorite months--I'm often called a grinch or a scrooge because I don't think Christmas should start to ease in until today, which is still 24 days early. I get called out? Really? Wal-Mart and Starbucks are telling you peace and good will and you think it comes from their sincerity?
     Please. Can Christmas just be at Christmas? The word "special" is not a synonym for "pervasive." Most men really do love Christmas, but we love having it to look forward to. It loses its good when drawn out.
     In parting, consider: when my wife finds as song she likes, she can listen to it over and over again. I've never understood that. I prefer to listen to a whole album, appreciating the lead-up to an especially stand-out track, and the proper hangover when it has passed, looking back fondly at a good moment, rather than trying to squeeze every last bit of joy out of it until you've just got a rind.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Can We Stop Bullying?

Can we or can't we? Best be realistic about what it is first.
     Because I always post on the first of the month, I've been wondering if my intended topic for today would still be, well, topical come November 1st. I think it's fair to wonder, when you consider how quickly things become wildfires on the web, and then just as quickly become old news. Remember Kony 2012? (Pay attention to the news Nov. 17th, by the way).
     Fact is, when something gets public notice, two groups of people speak up very quickly. The first are those who hate anything popular (you'll recognize them for their biting comments on music based on judgement made of the fans rather than of the music's own merit). They hate anything a lot of people--especially people they consider dumber than themselves--like. "It's not the cause I hate . . ." Then there's the second group, the cynics, the folks who say "Well, actually" to any idea presented anywhere, at any time. Their input serves as a distraction, as confusion. Nothing helpful. They're the Apple Maps on the iPhone of life.
     So I waited a few weeks and I am surprised and energized to note that people from the media to the water cooler are still talking about Amanda Todd, about her suicide, about cyber-bullying, and about that age-old question of how we stop bullying at all.
     Young Amanda Todd, an insecure teenager, someone looking to fit in and looking to be loved, made the mistake of exposing herself on the Internet. There are those who have well, actually-ed her mistake. Apparently, they were never young, they were never insecure, and they were never capable of a judgement error. She made a YouTube video crying for help and lashing out at her tormentors. The bullying worsened. She took her own life. Her story has been discussed and debated, her tormentors were (or were not--that one didn't make sense to me) exposed online. The Well, Actually faction started asking why everyone cared now. Where were you when she was alive and asking for help? What about all the kids being bullied right now?
     There they had a point.
     I work in a school, and this has been a constant issue this month. Much of the discussion has been aimed at how we can stop bullying. Can bullying be stopped? To decide on that, I think we maturely need to consider what bullying is.
     As simply as I have heard it defined, bullying is when you judge the faults of someone else, and act upon those judgements. It can be expressing this verbally and physically, and usually to a third party or parties. Making someone else feel bad because of what you judge to be wrong in them. It helps you deal with your own insecurities, because you fear your own bullies or--and this is most often the case--because you truly feel you're better than them.
     One of the results of Amanda Todd's suicide that has bothered me the most is the focus on schools and kids' use of social media. Basically, this has isolated bullying to the one place and the one virtual place where kids spend most of their week. This ignores how big bullying is. Limiting it to the confines of Another Teen Movie underestimates it, and makes it appear as if bullying could be wiped out because it's contained; this is especially how it sounds when well-intentioned adults and media bleeding hearts get involved. "We can step in and save these kids from the mess they've created from themselves." Crap.
     Ever heard a dude make fun of another dude in the change room at the gym? Ever see a co-worker reprimanded by the boss in front of everyone? Ever seen a rich aunt or uncle lord it over the rest of your family? Ever see someone mocked by his buddies for going to church? Or a family at church sitting by themselves after the service because they're new converts? Ever been at a staff function where a group of co-workers form their own faction? Ever seen a husband or wife speaking for their spouse in public? Ever complained about a socially-awkward friend of yours behind his back?
     Of course.
     Bullying is human behaviour. It's insecurity and judgement expressed by treading on the insecurities of others. Bullying is not a kid thing or a school thing. It's everywhere.
     The other issue that has risen is adults coming out and declaring that they were bullied in school, like it's some great revelation-party at the expense of one family's grief. This isn't a hidden shame, or homosexuality; this is bullying, and given the definition as I stretch it above, we've all suffered it at one time or another.
     Before you light a torch and come after me, let me amend that last statement. Yes, we've all suffered bullying, and we all still do every day. But it comes in degrees. Some of us build defences to deal with what we can. Some, like Amanda Todd, run out of places to run.
     The difference for us in 2012 can be seen by just looking at a comments section following an online article, or the thread of conversation following any disagreement on Facebook or Twitter. We are much more comfortable saying rotten things to and about each other when doing it online, and even better if we can be anonymous. I don't like to declare that the world is a worse place than it once was, but I will say that we treat each other worse with greater speed and greater fervour. Bullying has become easier and nastier.
     I won't avoid the question of whether bullying can be stopped, but I will not answer firmly with yes or no. I will answer with the tip of the solutionary wedge. I believe bullying can be lessened. I believe we can step away from the slippery slope above which we are now perched. However, to do so requires internal changes, not schools or work-places enforcing zero-tolerance policies and saying "good enough." Though it may make bullying less public, it's just bullying the bullies. Our beliefs and behaviours need to change.
    At the risk of sounding like a hippie--and who cares, it's better than the alternative--the change has to start with you. You can't expect bullying to lessen or even go away if you refuse to stop judging and expressing your judgements  You as a single person must choose to cease your bullying behaviour. You must actively try to stop yourself from judging, mocking, critiquing, and scoffing.
     So can we stop bullying? It depends on whether you just judged, mocked, critiqued, or scoffed.

   

Monday, October 1, 2012

Art, Censorship, and Bills That Make You Wonder


So, here’s my question: what is the purpose of art?

“Art is the means by which an artist comes to see.”—John Gardner

“I say in speeches that a plausible mission of artists is to make people appreciate being alive at least a little bit.”Kurt Vonnegut

“Popular art is the dream of society; it does not examine itself.”Margaret Atwood

“The role of art is not to express the personality but to overcome it.”T.S. Eliot

“The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purpose within him.”Carl Jung

“Art's whatever you choose to frame.”Fleur Adcock

“Art is our chief means of breaking bread with the dead.”W. H. Auden

                I am an artist and I am an educator. I suppose not in that order. My vocations blend at some times and conflict at others. I struggle with the concept of censorship. The artist in me is saying that what I am doing is expressing the human condition, it’s holding up a mirror to existence so that we may better assess it, it’s inspiring the living by pointing out the truth of life, it’s entertainment.
                Sounds high-fallootin’, doesn’t it?
                As a teacher, I attempt to lead young people to question, assess, decide, and to think. To do this right, I need to challenge them, to draw them out of their comfort zones.
                Both art and education expose their “audiences” to the challenging, the uncomfortable. Hiding from what makes you exposes your fears and weaknesses only ceases your development as a human being. Someone who does not know the world cannot know himself.
                Alberta’s teachers are currently suffering the constraints placed on them by the recently-passed Bill 44, which allows students to opt out of lessons that they or their parents (mostly their parents) find offend their religion, their sexual orientation, or their fear of having to think about either. The fight is underway, and far from over, because if it is assumed—
-that teachers think of their students first,
                -that is, that we intend them no harm,
                -that we don’t intend to make them atheists (or not),
                -that we don’t intend to make them gay (or not),
                -that we don’t intend to make them evil (or . . . not),
                -that the texts we use in teaching are valid because they challenge them as thinkers,
—then Bill 44 serves absolutely no purpose because there’s nothing in the curriculum to protect kids from.
                Of course, opportunists—those with the best or the worst intentions—will see this as the time to impose their own ideologies on the masses. Religion has a way of sticking it nose in. So do noses on the front of busybodies.
                I put this topic to a group of young artists who are also my students. Writing class. All girls if it matters. I asked them when censorship should be applied to art. They were vehemently against it at first, for fear that stifles creative expression.
                So, swearing on the radio is okay?
                Well, no, But they bleep the swears out.
                Oh? I can’t listen to my favorite Calgary radio station when my kids are in the car because the DJs are so crude.
                They granted me that one. However, that’s public consumption. Art, something you choose to take in—film, photography, literature—that shouldn’t be censored.
                What if it’s in school and there is no choice? Better yet, what about when the chosen art is pornography? Racist? Abusive? What about how if you make an album but swear once on it then your career is doomed because Wal-Mart won’t carry it?
                When you ask yourself what art is, you get a subjective answer. For me, porn is not art. For Ron Jeremy . . . okay, bad example, but there’s someone who would try to justify it, I’m sure. When we say that we must allow all art to thrive so it may challenge our thinkers, you open the door to S and M, to stupid anti-Islam films, to reality TV.
                Bill 44 is stupid and limiting and born out of right-right-wing fear mongering. It forgets the purpose of studying texts in the classroom, the purpose of art. Censorship in the classroom limits the ability of the teacher to teach. Censorship in art stifles creativity. Yet, the fact is that there is a line for all of us at some point.
                What makes me uptight may be fine by you. Or not.




Saturday, September 1, 2012

War of 1812 Canadian? That's a Stretch

BNA generals, adept at dying despite winning.

I’m teaching a Canadian History and Culture class for immigrants and international students. It’s one of my favorite lessons: the War of 1812.
                Assuming that my audience know nothing about the war—fair as most Canadians know nothing about the war—I start off with a question. In pedagogical lingo, this is known as an icebreaker. I guess it means the same thing in all lingos for when you’re intending to start something.
                “Does anyone know why the White House is white?”
                They look at me, at each other, sensitive to the likely trick nature of the question. Don’t answer with the obvious. . . . Is this a race thing?
                “Because,” I say, “a group from British North America—Canada someday—attacked Washington, lit it on fire, and burned a substantial portion of the president’s house. When it was repaired, it was painted white: the White House.”
                They give me that mistrusting look that tells me that they are waiting for the punch line.
                “No really.” I tell them about Napoleon, about British raids on North American merchant ships, about American retaliation against the nearest British colony: the Canadas. I tell them about the American attack on York (Toronto). I tell them about Johnny Horton and “The Battle of New Orleans.”
                I tell them about how Major General Issac Brock led the British forces to victory in repelling the Americans, but was mortally wounded in doing so, following General Wolfe in that proud BNA tradition of dying in victory on Canadian soil. Canadian generals would only learn to survive their triumphs when they started commanding overseas.
                They don’t know what to make of all this. Is he serious? People from CANADA burned down the White House? Canada. Seriously. The place where people say “Excuse me” when they fart by themselves?
                “Well, no,” I correct, holding up a correctional finger in that way that says what I’m saying now is important and the rest of the lesson is just chaff. “It wasn’t Canada. Canada proper wouldn’t exist for 55 years. But neat story, eh?”
                Then I play them the Arrogant Worms' “The War of 1812,” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ety2FEHQgwM I point out the nod to Horton’s song, which was about the rest of the war, a war that would last another three years, inspire the lyrics to “The Star Spangled Banner,” and end in either a stalemate or an American victory, depending what country published the history book you read.
                I teach it because it's fun, not because it's especially Canadian.

                The historian in me loves that the Canadian Government has chosen to recognize the bi-centennial of the War of 1812. The historian in me also approves of the prime minister’s whacky little quest to find the Franklin Expedition. However, the Canadian in me shrugs and says we shouldn’t try to make the War of 1812+ into something it wasn’t, and maybe you should get off that icebreaker and back to work, sir.
                In taking a war—a war fought by the British, with a victory in the north, but overall a pretty much a loss—and making it out to be a major turning point in our history is too much like Americanizing our history for me. As with the Plains of Abraham, the significance was really on the eventual Canada. The Americans have created myths and heroes out of their history, usually with some tremendous embellishment. It’s a mistake for us to do the same, to try to create some sort of false gods so we can all feel proud at the sake of facts. That’s just not Canadian.
                At the risk of being too Canadian—sarcastic, self- and nationally-deprecating—let me say I do feel strongly about the effect later battles had on us as a nation. Much of our Canadianness, our non-Britishness, came at places like Vimy, and in the days afterward when the Canadian Corps fought under the command of the unlikely General Arthur Currie. There were battles that contributed to our national identity, sure, but Canada is a nation affected by war, not defined by it. I think that’s one of the most important differences between us and U.S.
                So if you’re interested in history, by all means learn a little about the war of 1812 (thru ’15). There’s a great government website currently dedicated to it. http://1812.gc.ca/eng/1305654894724 Learn about Issac Brock, Tecumseh, Laura Secord, and, yes, the burning of the White House. But don’t feel that guilty lack of patriotism if you’re a Canadian and this story is news to you. There are far more important—and more Canadian—things to make your maple-leaf tattoo swell with a burning need to cheer and then apologize for the noise. (Gold in swimming at the Paralympics—woot!)   

Monday, August 6, 2012

I Went to Magic Mike

     Yes, it was her turn to pick the movie. Yes, I was aware in advance that it was about male strippers. Yes, I was aware that one of the stars is Matthew McConaughey, a guy I think should be the template for Hollywood stereotypes "standers" and "sayers," so we don't have to insult the wort "actor" by applying it to him.
     Apparently my man card is at risk for seeing this movie. See my last post for what I think of man-judgement. Anyway, thoughts on this flick that's become a phenomenon:

1. It will not make you gay. Unless you already are, or already are and don't know it. If so, I think you'll like it. 
2. I thought there would be more for the fellas. I mean, animated movies often have these bits for the adults, wouldn't it make sense to throw in some, dunno, plot or something for the dudes to enjoy, if they are dragged to it (or, like me, secure enough to agree to go)? 
3. It really is just a stripper/dance movie with a very loose/lame plot connecting it all together. Like a modern, post-50 Shades Saturday Night Fever.
4. It's really hard to believe Steven Soderbergh directed this. That must've been a really big truck full of money. 
5. You think the movie's about 2/3 done when it ends. Just kinda stops. Maybe Soderbergh sobered up and realized what he was doing.
6. Channing Tatum is the only decent actor in it and has all the best lines. Make of that what you will.
7. I'm pretty sure most of the dialogue was made up on the fly, it's that bad. Well, not bad so much as awkward. It's like watching two hours of a really nervous person trying to give a speech.
8. Channing Tatum is a hellevua dancer. (Yes, I'm aware he used to be a stripper. Is there anyone who doesn't know that?)
9. In one summer Tatum plays the object of female fantasies and Duke from G.I. Joe. There's only so much envy in the universe us 30-somethings can have for you. (And screw you for the bit where you made fun of MY name. You're names Channing, chrissakes!)
10. Cody Horn has a jaw that looks like it could bite through steel. When she kisses Tatum I'm surprised sparks don't literally fly like two edge-grinders colliding. Makes up for the fact that she is probably the worst actor in this who doesn't have matching initials. 
11. Speaking of, I believe Matthew McConaughey has no regrets about playing himself for his entire career. I thought, for like six seconds of Amistad, that he wasn't REALLY his character in Dazed and Confused permanently. In Mike, he was paid millions to be himself. Why act?
12. The last time I was at a movie where people were shouting cat-calls and hootting and hollering at the screen was in 1997 when Star Wars was re-released. I think the ladies at Mike have fewer issues.
13. People were offended by this? I mean, it's not an especially good film, but it has fit dudes dancing with minimal clothing. It's a bass drone above a gladiator movie. Any ten minutes of The Road (book or film) disturbed me more than this whole thing.
14. There were three men in the theatre, including me. We traded knowing nods. We were resigned and having fun. The whole thing was a little bit festive.
15. My wife didn't like it any more than I did. Like me, she expected it to have some more to it to be such a phenomenon, and she's hardly a panter when all those 16-packs start gyrating. 

Nothing more than what it says it is, a Showgirls for the ladies. (Incidentally, I never did see all of Showgirls, and no, I didn't shut it off for the reason you're thinking. I shut it off because it was making me stupider). 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

The New Old Man


So, it appears that men are back. I guess they started to lose ground when Elton John became famous and were on the brink of extinction when “I feel” statements came into vogue. The securing (but by no means full acceptance: see below) of Women’s Lib further pushed men to the edges. Real men, that is. They were all but gone for a while in any group born later than 1970. What remained were dudes who hugged, dudes who talked about their inner pain, dudes who made sure she finished, dudes who drank white wine on hot days, dudes who cared. Y’know: sissies.
                It must have been hard for our gun-totin’, tobacco-spittin’, woman-in place puttin’, feelings-quellin’ grandfathers to stand. “We won the war for these pussies?”
                Much to my chagrin, and to the delight of our now-deceased Nazi-crushing forebears, in the past ten years, the man has come back. Well, a version of the man, anywho. It’s like a false front building. With biceps. And extremely tight t-shirts.
                These men coined the terms “hipster” and “metrosexual” because as far as they’re concerned, the only fashion statement you need is ten more bench presses and a five-gallon tub of creatine.
                The new men drive big trucks (usually with some brass balls hanging off the hitch they use to pull the trailer what hauls their garden tractor). They fight and drink and fuck and swear. They own guns. Their idea of a steady girlfriend is one who’s up for round two in the morning before she gets her skinny ass out of my pad.
                Via those social media, I’ve been watching the resurgence of men, and I’m not much for it. They are not specific to a generation, for the older men who once cried about always being picked last in T-ball are also joining the fray, taking advantage of a Brave New World like an RPG-dealer in post-Bush Iraq. However, far too many of these men with the values of my redneck paternal grandfather are half my age. I’ve been trying to figure why so many of our youth have been going backwards on the male scale of evolution, why so many of them feel that they need to buy a $50,000 compensation wagon for their twenty-minute commute, why they feel they need to treat women like masturbatory tools.  
                Now, as all great cultural shifts are, this one looks like a rebellion of sorts. We tell these kids to tell us how “that” makes them feel and look at the girl down the way as an equal in all categories (vive la similarité), and they clam up. Start using “twat” in regular conversation.
                I haven’t swung that way. Maybe it’s because I grew up on a farm, and drove a $400,000 piece of machinery before I owned my first car. I shot a gun (and killed gophers with it) before I was ten. I have been in fights that involved punching in the face. And yet, I think my mother is the most intelligent person I know, I write poetry, I wear Lululemon, and I drive a minivan. I drive the fuck outta that minivan. I have never felt the need to prove myself as a man. I mean, I think 50 Shades of Grey might be the best book I’ll never read and any dude who thinks otherwise needs to have his head looked into. I think a dude that owns a gun or an unnecessary half-ton seriously needs to know that it’s not the size that counts. Yes, I mean that.
I talk about my feelings with my wife. Feel good about doing it. Better yet, I listen to my wife talk about her feelings.
I saw a movie recently in which a typical Hollywood dude who had misplaced his shirt declared that “the battle of the sexes is over and we [men] won.” Seriously? That’s the corner he turned. I didn’t agree with this bouche-dag, with the writer who wrote that line for him, nor the inspiration of it. At least I wasn’t filled with a need to eat protein or “smack my bitch up.” I was distraught that anyone, ever, felt this sentiment needed to be expressed, that this huge backward step in human evolution needed to be declared, even lauded.
Modern man features absolutely nothing modern. Apparently, one too many viewings of (cause they ain’t reading it) Fight Club have led too many males to doubt themselves as such. Fellas, this is the wrong way to prove you’re a man, but a helluva way to prove you’re still monkeys. 

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Guns, Revisited


     It feels far too familiar to be in the wake of a massive shooting, and then to hear people attempting to explain it. Motivations are sought, a particular individual's insanity is discussed, so that how isolated this incident may be, or how uniquely American this event was, can be attested. Thus, people can ignore the fact that a man was able to legally acquire guns with which he illegally employed them in the purpose for which they were made. A day from the Utøya massacre's first anniversary, and I've lost count of how many shootings like this have happened in the past year, in The U.S., but also in Toronto, Belgium, in supposedly more peaceful countries everywhere.
     This happened because a violent person had easy access to guns. Don't tell me he would have just found illegal guns if legal ones weren't so easy to buy. That's a justification, and besides, legal ones ARE too damn easy to acquire. Colorado has disturbingly lax gun laws: 
      http://www.cbc.ca/news/world/story/2012/07/20/denver-shooting-movie-premiere.html.

     But ANY access to guns is wrong. No justifications. It is becoming routine after a killing like this to hear law-abiding, non-violent (?), "leisure," gun owners defending their liberties, touting some variation of an antiquated American amendment. It's not the madness of one person that sees a dozen people murdered. It is the pervading belief that this man could have done what he did no matter what, and just because he could buy an arsenal around the corner, and drums of ammunition online, we shouldn't be concerning ourselves with tougher gun laws or restricting use and ownership, they say.
     In 2012, I say again that there is no reason to own a gun. They're not tools, they're not toys, and those who defend the right to possess them in the wake of this "singular" tragedy are trivializing the lives of the victims in that theatre. Guns should be banned, legislate it. The costs to government are meaningless when measured against the lives taken. 

Monday, July 16, 2012

Southern Alberta in 2.5 Days


Last weekend, I let my tendency to overload myself with obligations get a little out of hand. However, it resulted in a pretty magnificent solo tour of Southern Alberta, and though I’m not sure this is the best way to see this province, it certainly drives in the stark contrasts of beauty within short reach of each other.
            I had just finished a week of work in Edmonton. Yes, I know that’s not Southern Alberta, but it’s framework. After a weekend at home in Strathmore, and a Canada Day performance with my band, I rolled down the hill to Drumheller, to a summer school I was starting work at for my ninth consecutive summer. Drumheller is a city that gets a bad rap sometimes. People see the touristy schlock as overwhelming, they find the population too transient, they hate how in the summer it’s five degrees hotter and in winter five degrees colder than the rest of the area on any given day. However, for almost a decade I’ve spent the first three weeks of every summer living there, and there isn’t a city in Canada that can’t show you its best side in that particular time frame, so you’ll excuse me if I have a soft spot for dinosaur-ville.
           
Thursday evening: Drumheller

            My students are part of the cast in the Canadian Badlands Passion Play, so I spent the evening watching rehearsals. The natural amphitheatre is spectacle enough, surrounded by the hoodoos of the Badlands, by the Neapolitan of those bentonite hills. It’s a well-known fact that on the site it’s five to ten degrees hotter than in town, making it sometimes fifteen degrees hotter than home, so I take my Nordic flesh and search for shade—there were no Vikings in first century Judea.
            A summer storm was drawn out by the heat, and for an hour we were pummeled by hail and then soaked by a deluge. Then the sky did what prairie summer skies do in the summer after a storm, and rehearsal resumed. During the last hour, a rainbow formed, complete from end to end. Then, a second rainbow formed above it, complete as well, and from the crowds of mock-Hebrews below came a chorus of YouTube-inspired praise for this spectacle.
The Passion Play post-storm

Friday: The Foothills and Crowsnest Pass

            I tore out of the valley just after my morning classes had finished, taking full advantage of a rare half-day at work. I stopped in Strathmore to make sure my marriage was still in good shape, transitioned my overnight bag, and then ripped out to the Pass.
            Alberta’s Highway 2, the QE2, is one of the worst driving experiences in Canada. I’m no sissy behind the wheel—I can handle heavy traffic and triple lanes. But’s it’s little better than an American freeway, a sad stretch of bumper-to-bumper, the view choked off by never-ending roadside capitalism, or its unappealing bush country if you go north of Panoka. The QE2 exists so that you may discover secondary highways.
            I plunged into the Foothills at Nanton, taking the 533 and 22 route to Blairmore and Coleman.
The Foothills. A lot of places claim to be God’s Country, but when mountains meet prairie, when the land appears to stretch and say it was meant to be occupied by greater things than us, and then you see the best of what this land has to offer. I don’t say this because I want to live there. I’ve no desire to ranch, and I got my fill of hurricane blow driers during the first twenty years of my life in Southwest Saskatchewan. But it’s one of the most heart-aching of landscapes, and despite being on the clock, I found myself stopping frequently to get out and hear the wind speak.
            I arrived in Coleman—just west of Blairmore—for a spaghetti supper and information session. I was a member of one of two teams from Strathmore that were running the Sinister 7 relay the next morning. After we had been properly fed and given some placebo information on what to do if you’re attacked by a bear (just saying “Kiss your ass goodbye” sounds defeatist), Kevin, Mike and the crew took me to the ski lodge we had rented for our teams. Most of them were making a weekend of it, but I only got the one night, so I took a few minutes to watch the sun set on the Pass before heading in for the night.
Sundown in the Pass

Saturday: Sinister 7 to Red Deer

            When you stay in the Pass in July, there’s the temptation to say you would like to move there. It’s inconceivably gorgeous, even for us prairie folk who are born with unshakable suspicion of vertical life. However, before you make any rash real estate decisions, I would suggest—just as with Drumheller and the Foothills—that you see how bearable it is in the winter first. Or, simply spend a night there camping with 1400 other runners, being blasted awake through the night by the horns of passing trains. Yeah, less than a bright side.
            Up just after 5 am, thanks in no small part to the good people of CP, I got ready to race. The Sinister 7 is a 148 km relay across the Pass over two days. I was running Leg 2, a 16km jaunt that would see me done before lunch. Some of the poor bastards on my team would be running in snow after midnight.
            We went down into Blairmore to cheer on our first two runners at the 7 am gun. Jason and Leanne were in one of those rare spots in the sport of running where you get a large crowd to cheer you on. There would be no such fanfare when Jason handed our team’s timing chip off to me, lucky bugger.
            Once we’d seen them off, us Leg 2 folks were piled onto school buses and shuttled up the mountain east of Frank’s Slide. We started at the base of Hasting’s Ridge, waiting on Jason. A few other runners came through before him: the hard-core Leg 1 folks, and even a few of the soloists. Yes, these were the masochistic sunsabitches running the entire 148 km in 25 hours on their own. Holy sweet fuck.
            When I got the chip, it was pretty much straight up for the first hour. Mountain trails up and across the world’s best range, with a view of Crowsnest Mountain and the Seven Sisters. Spectacular, though I admit I didn’t get much chance to admire it because I was too busy watching to see that I didn’t trip over a rock or tree root or cougar or bear—which they’d given us a 50/50 chance of coming upon. Holy sweet fuck.
            It was gorgeous, what I saw, and my eight months of running on a treadmill with full incline paid off, because I was able to run up all but the most stupid sheer climb at the 10k mark, which I had to resort to walking/scrambling. The down slopes were less than inspiring, because you can’t make much time when you’re hammering your feet to pulp on great chunks of broken national symbol, or when you’re mud-skiing slopes, your hands reaching out to grab random trees for balance and speed control. Passed through rocks, fire kill, and dense vegetation.
            There was a lot of good humour and camaraderie on these trails, despite the difficulty the course and the drive of most racers. Despite the fact that most of us were competitive half, full, and ultra-marathoners, after that first savage peak, we stopped worrying about our times and just worried about our feet.
            16.78k, 900+ up, 1100 down later, I was back in Blairmore and passed off to Rob, who was on duty for the even more abusive Leg 3. A quick visit with my friends, some pats on the back and high fives, and I wished them luck as I left for my car. Grabbed a sub and I was four-wheel bound again.
            Perhaps it was the post-race euphoria, but that lunch hour made the Foothills even more spectacular than the previous evening. Again, I stopped many times to take in the view—and to make sure my legs didn’t stiffen up.
On the way out of the Foothills
            I had learned that the QE2 north of Nanton was in full summertime construction mode, so I decided to veer off onto the 547, taking the 24 and 817 route home. From Foothills to purest, rolling Prairie. Canadian Prairie might not make your heart catch in your throat like the Rockies at sunset, but it will always be home. After the elevation run that morning, it was just nice to be looking at something flat.
            I stopped in Strathmore to shower and to shift my overnight bag from race to wedding mode, then out on the #9 and eventually to the goddam QE2 into Red Deer. Yes, I could’ve taken back roads the whole way, but sometimes 130 km per is in order. I made it to Red Deer in time for supper, and to dance the night away with my wife and kids. Still had enough in the tank for waterslides in the morning.
            I don’t recommend seeing hoodoos, foothills, mountains, and prairie in a forty-eight hour period, but I do recommend seeing them all at some time, and close enough together to appreciate the contrast. The beauty of my adoptive province hit me like an assault last weekend, and the easy transition of the topography was countered only by that dramatic disparity. God’s Country? Dunno, but certainly several slices of His favorite counties. 

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Upon Seeing My Eldest Ride His Bike

     They're right when they tell you that the day your child is born it changes you. They're right when they point out to you how deeply affected you are by first words, first steps, first injuries. Those that pause for longer than a cliché will tell you that the world becomes big again when you see it with your children.
     A bike trailer became a favorite purchase, pulling my children around, sharing in the world that they see. Then yesterday it was time to get my oldest his first bike with training wheels.
     After supper, he nervously took it halfway down the block and back. Me beside him, righting him once when he almost tipped. Still, independence. The time where he will need to be attached to me for transportation, where my motion is his motion, is slipping away. I watched those sixteen inch wheels spin, the determined set of his jaw, the white knuckles on his handle bars.
     When they told me all that, they didn't mention the symbolism of a day like this.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Divided By Zero


Whenever I tell people that I’m a teacher I invariably hear, a) “I was a terrible kid—you would have hated teaching me,” and b) “There’s so much wrong with the education system. And kids these days are so lazy, entitled, and show no respect.”
                Everyone has gone through school, and for some reason that makes everyone an expert on the education system. It’s phenomenon unique to my profession. In learning how to drive a car, I never felt that I had acquired expertise on the finer points of internal combustion; I go to the hospital when I am injured, but I do not point out how I feel a surgeon can improve her methods; I enjoy a lobster once in a while, but I have no idea how to set, bait, or retrieve traps. You get the point.
                But because everyone goes to school, everyone is an expert on education. Sitting in classrooms for twelve years is apparently all you need to know about how education is implemented and modified. And because high school involves two groups that are more often than not despised by society at large for their laziness and pampered lifestyles (namely teens and teachers), when something controversial comes up, the reaction of the general public is often incomparably negative and inconceivably ignorant.
                When it came out last week that Edmonton Physics teacher Lynden Dorval had been suspended for not following his school’s “no zero” policy, the media pounced, and the masses leaped a foot in the air. It’s been everywhere lately, and the enraged surprise has me flabbergasted because none of this is new. Many school divisions have been using no zero polices, or something like them, for years. Dorval has just made a calculated decision—this was all done with intent—to bring it out fully to a public that may have been unaware.
                Unfortunately, because people are already experts on the education system, they attacked this with resounding ignorance, making no attempts to delve into the facts. If this were a Social Studies essay, they would have failed miserably. Bombardment! Facebook, Twitter, CBC Radio’s Unconventional Panel, Calgary Herald columnist Naomi Labritz—everyone has been shooting off their mouths, pens, and keyboards as to how the system is creating a bunch of spoiled brats who don’t know the meaning of working for results. All anyone has heard is “teacher fired for giving zeroes,” and it was picked up and sprinted with.
“Entitlement.”
“Rewarding laziness . . .”
“In my day . . .”
“In the real world . . .”
Dorval’s case hasn’t received the careful sort of analysis we would have our English Language Arts students use in approaching a character’s motivations. If you have heard the man interviewed, he’s not drawing a line in the sand with zeroes on one side and anarchy on the other. He has given his students every chance possible to get in late assignments, but at the end of the semester, if he doesn’t see the homework, zero it is. Personally, I agree with this approach. Dorval is 61, and the higher you go up the pension ladder, the more resistance you see to no zeroes, comment-based assessments, and floating due dates. He sounds like he has tried harder to bend than a lot of those more jaded by years in this profession—just not quite hard enough.
Is he being fired? I think he’s chosen to retire with a very loud bang.
Assessment For (as opposed to Of) Learning is not an “every kid wins even if she does nothing” philosophy, as critics in newspaper columns would have us believe as they dump buckets of dirt into clean wells.
School is there to teach first, to impart knowledge. It is a place for trial and error, so if a kid performs a task and the only feedback he gets is 7/10, where does he go with that? How does he improve? School does not exist only to “prepare kids for the real world”—that preparation comes from the combination and synthesis of the information they get from school, parents, and personal experiences.
And what is this “real world” that keeps getting preached, anyway? This “if you don’t do it and do it right the first time, you get fired” world where no one has even had a mother who loved him and every Boomer is the model of hard work and professionalism?
Is this the real world where we ask for extended deadlines on projects, knowing that the quality of the project trumps all? Is this the real world where you wait half an hour for service from a disinterested clerk in an electronics store? Is this the real world where you order your steak medium rare and get chicken? Do these people lose their jobs? Puh­-lease. I think you’re confusing reality with ideality—your ant-hill utopia doesn’t exist.
Overall, I have a pretty similar approach to Dorval. When every last chance has been exhausted, I do give a zero. But then, my school division doesn’t have a policy like his, so zeroes are a resort I have access to. That’s what they are, though, a last resort. I avoid giving marks as punishment. My job is not to punish, nor to teach that the only valuable pursuit is reward, nor to present kids with some dog-eat-dog depiction of a world that doesn’t exist. My job is to teach, to help kids turn themselves into people who can think for themselves.
Hopefully, they will learn to consider the facts of an issue before firing off an opinion on it, and accept that because they have experienced the results of a system, they may not be experts on how it works. 

Friday, June 1, 2012

Productive Art


                Art. For something mean to be a celebration, a term that is supposed to have the positive ramifications of, say, “joy” or “love,” it certainly is a divisive idea.
                Art brings joy, and it expresses love. We accept that these are good things, and yet they are not quantifiable. Art, on the other hand, is treated with nervous suspicion. It’s as if, as ideas go, Art is some sort of unwashed uncle with limitless untapped potential who just loafs on the couch all day. What good can Art do if you can’t count its virtues?
                I was out for a run the other night when I stopped to speak with one of my town councilors. He addressed our town’s consideration of forming an Arts Council, and the troubles entailed. How can a town of over 10, 000 people justify all the golf courses and hockey arenas you could ask for, but we have no museum, no gallery, and our local theatre group has often been forced to put on shows in a barn at the rodeo grounds?
                Because Art, as I said, is often treated with suspicion, or at least a suspicion of its purposes. People can see validity in entertainment for entertainment’s sake, but Art for Art’s sake they find rather icky. No judgement is made of television, a mindless medium many people dedicate the majority of their evenings to consuming, because it’s entertainment. Art, while it can often be entertaining—and I’d argue, when it’s best should always be—is about something richer, something more fulfilling. I’ve been stuck on Julia Cameron’s definition: “Making [A]rt is making love to life.”
                I suppose, as with most I see wrong in the world, once again it’s capitalism’s fault. Capitalism is just a human version of one of our most basic mammalian behaviours: win. Taken at its most base, that’s all living for money is, a more eloquent version of what monkeys do: eat, fuck, sleep.
                Art for Art’s sake is often viewed with a cocked eyebrow by most people (and by the major levels of government in this country). People who work exclusively for money cannot seem to fathom doing anything without doing it to accumulate capital. If you do something and you make money doing it, you can push the furthest boundaries of morality and you’ll still have reams of supporters. But do something for the sheer joy of doing it, because you’re expressing yourself or because you want to explore an idea and you risk being labelled lunatic, hippie, or—worst of all—non-contributor. Art does not always toss slop into the trough.
                Recently, I completed a history text. I found this overall to be a great experience, unfamiliar and refreshing. As I learned the history of what I was writing about, I also stretched my creative muscles to fit the information into the concept and the parameters of length and design. History writing has a very specific style and a purpose, it calls for careful creativity. I succeeded, I was rewarded.
                I encountered a friend just after finishing the text and told him about it, and he became fixated on the topic of how much I made doing it. When I tried to share my joy with him, or even a historical anecdote which I was packed full of, his brows knitted.
                “Yeah, but how much did you make?”
                This was his only concern, his only interest in the project.
                When you make Art, you struggle with enough inner guilt that you don’t need this exterior stuff. Hell, I’ve struggled with guilt in composing this very blog because I am only a partial—I have yet to abandon my day job, because I need the money. I see my slight hypocrisy there, though I would argue I don’t live for the money.
                I imagine there are no artists who haven’t struggled with guilt over doing what they do. Why? What’s the purpose? What am I saying? What am I accomplishing?
                I had a little epiphany when considering my own Art/guilt struggle, it’s what led to this blog. I’ve been struggling with why I write what I write. I don’t write exclusively to entertain. I suppose there’s some expression of the human condition in it, but that’s always felt like pale philosophy in search of a moral to me. I enjoy playing with language and telling tales. The epiphany occurred—as so many do—while I was playing with my children. They were telling me about their days, in language rife with errors and non-sequitors. The plot of this day mattered much less than the details of a cheese sandwich or a game of tag. The quality of their language, their ability to express joy, sadness, elation and pain, is improving daily. This, I realized, is the importance of what I do: I use language, the triumph of humanity, most significant of inventions, and I push it as far as I can. This separates us from the beasts. Unlike money. 

Thursday, May 31, 2012

More Than Meh

     I was recently called out by someone I respect. This is a person of some celebrity who has a large group of keen listeners, readers, and online followers. He writes a column for a city publication and, without naming me directly, took exception to something I said in the column and via social media. This a person I respect, understand, though we do not agree on too many things the same outside of a love for beer and football teams.
     The dispute stemmed from his sharing on Facebook the comments of someone whose ideologies rarely align with my own. The commentator was being intentionally provocative about the Quebec student protests (from his comfortable spot in Alberta, where a bash against Quebec is always a safe bet). He then went on to belittle those who replied to his comments.
     I commented on the thread, and my esteemed friend, who had reposted the thread in the first place, asked me to justify my feelings that it is an Albertan cliche to attack protesters, be they Quebec students, members of the Occupy Movement, striking CP employees or, god help us, teachers or nurses. I got into one of those "I respect you but don't know you" Facebook debates with a person who also has a completely different political, ideological and possibly ethical leaning than myself. Those aren't always much use.
     My friend, the one person of the three I actually know, commented in his column that I was glomming him into the masses, those who belittle all forms of protest, those who feel that their own opinions of why a protest is happening justify telling protesters to shut up from the safety of their own couch. Perhaps I did, though that was not my intent.
     The single stopping point, that is, the point where we do not agree, is on the judgement of the student protesters in Quebec. I don't know how it's being reported in the rest of the country, but in Alberta what we're hearing on most media is how low tuition has been in Quebec, and the opining has leaned towards calling the protesters spoiled babies who are making the Charest government into villains for doing their jobs. The Charest government are doing that well enough on their own, introducing a despicable anti-assembly law in the same vein as the feds' back-to-work legislation.
     When I was in university, if I would have seen a drastic hike in my tuition, you can be damn sure I would've taken to the streets as well. I would not have looked to my East or my West and said, "Shucks, I'm doing better than those guys." I would have gone after a government that has traditionally done a terrible job of funding post-secondary education and called them out for their lack of creativity, for saddling the cost on the people least-equipped to bear the load. This is the sort of thing that can turn the wary away from an education, and the idea frightens me.
     My education has created an arrogance in me that I must be cautious of. However, since long before I had finished my degrees, in the days where Canada Student Loans annually found some giant roadblock to throw in front of me (such as counting my father's farm machinery as liquid assets), I have been afraid of people accepting that they won't go to university because of costs, and instead taking the fast track to easy money. "I'll take my Grade 12, work in the oil patch, exploit, consume, and die having accomplished . . . what?"
     My umbrage stemmed from the comments regarding these students that echoed so many I have heard regarding protest of late.
     "Accept. Relent."
     "It could be worse."
     Is this what we've resorted to, saying that life's good enough, don't complain? Don't seek to make it better? Don't point out injustice when you see it? And to pointing fault in the deeds of anyone who does not feel they should do the same?
     I welcome protest in all forms, because protest is dialogue. Do I agree with religious crackpots bashing gay marriage on the front steps of the White House? No. But I allow that they should have the right to express themselves so that I may weigh their arguments and decide where I stand.
     Complacency has been the Western Canadian operating word for a decade or more. Apathy and lethargy are the greatest threats to freedom of speech.


Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Women Second


WR Leader Danielle Smith and Premier Alison Redford

                I can disclaim away, citing my revulsion for male chauvinism, the long line of influential females in my life, my cheerleading of women’s rights, but it won’t matter, someone will take exception to my message or my tone—because I’m a man writing about women.
                And that’s sort of my point, see.
                For my readers outside the confines of Alberta, you may have noted that my dear adoptive province recently had itself an election. It was quite a heated thing, and also one of the more fascinating we’ve seen in this province in years. Don’t let the result (yet another Progressive Conservative majority, preserving a forty-one year old dynasty) belie the drama—it was something to see. The upstart, ultra-conservative Wild Rose Party under Danielle Smith putting pressure on the incumbent just plain conservative PC party under new “red Tory” Premier Alison Redford; as well, the also ran Liberals, NDP, Alberta Party, and (in my riding alone!) Alberta Separatist Party trying their darndest to show that this province isn’t completely mired in conservatism. Ineffectively, it seems, especially because so many of those of us who ideologically lean to the left strategically voted, that is, held our noses, apologized to our gods, and voted PC for fear of the predications of a Wild Rose majority entrenching us in such backwards backwoods philosophies that they would make Stephen Harper giddy with Reformer glee.
                Instead, the PCs landed yet another majority and the Wild Rose were limited to a mere 17 seats, making them the Official Opposition, but hardly with a vice-like grip on the throat of Redford’s party. The dust has settled, we look to the future, some of us wondering just how Ms. Redford will balance her centralist leanings and left support with the traditional conservatives in her party and in her support base. It remains to be seen.
                That’s all back-story. The point of fact is that we have our first female premier elected in Alberta with the first female leader of the official opposition. Rah, womanhood!
                However, this seems to cause some to feel that to criticize their politics is to criticize their gender, in effect implying that because these are female politicians, this should make them immune to criticism, just as if someone were to be a politician whose policies we disagree with, but were Muslim or Native or a person with a disability, they should receive special exception to any criticisms of said policy (he said, staring at the well-greased slope atop which he was perched).
                Although I am delighted to have a female premier and a female head of the double O, I see them as politicians first, women second. Smith has expressed positions on education, health care, and the environment that I find so disturbing she may be the only politician I hold in the same elite company of yucky as our current prime minister. Redford, whom I respect much more than her predecessors, and most of those who she defeated in the PC leadership race, still holds up the tarsands as the solution to the American energy crisis, still supports the building of questionable pipelines—she’s still a capitalist conservative, and I ain’t. I am bothered that my questioning any policies leads in turn to me being questioned for judging them based on which way they face when they pee.
                Analogy: I like Chris Rock, I think he’s a very funny guy. However, so much of his schtick is “black people.” His humour involves pointing out that he is black, comparing white people to blacks, and often the self-deprecation of black people or the send-up of the starched white. I get tired of that. I like Chris Rock the comedian, and yet it is required to always provide the qualifier that he is Chris Rock, the black comedian.
                So it is apparently going with feminism. Here we are, a half century after the Women’s Liberation Movement began, and how much ground have we covered when a man talking critically about a woman’s ideas (that is, not the fact that she is a woman with ideas) is called a chauvinist? I mean, what sort of equality have we created when we put them in special bubbles—does equality not come with the bad as well as the good? In constantly pointing out that this is a woman premier and a woman leader of the opposition, are we not, devaluing them? Are we not enabling those who would see difference as a disability, rather than vive-ing it?
                Analogy: I love hockey, and this year’s Stanley Cup Playoffs are proving to be one of the most boring set of goonfests in recent memory. I like finsesse hockey, hockey where capable speedsters weave their way down the ice in a manner that is almost artistic. I prefer a beautifully-calculated play over a bone-crushing hit. I enjoy elite women’s hockey, I have a friend who has represented us on the Women’s Olympic Hockey Team since the sport was picked up for Nagano. And yet, their game must always be qualified with “women’s style hockey,” as if it’s something of a lesser sport because there’s finesse, athleticism, and a much lesser amount of physical play (though not none). It seems we’re spending as much time providing exceptions as celebrating difference here.
                Because I am a man, I may be questioned and criticized for exercising my right to question and criticize. Men commenting on women’s issues are on shaky ground indeed, but perhaps that itself is part of the issue, that we still keep so much of that territory segregated by gender (or race, religion, or what have you). I have always attested that I am a man raised by women, that the female figures in my life are powerful people who have shaped my thinking and led me to possess temperaments I don’t see paralleled by some of my male peers. Yet, criticism of my right to comment persists.
                I am interested and a little worried to see what our new premier does—as premier. Not as a woman. I’m concerned that our opposition leader will gain support and present ideas to Albertans that I find threatening—because they’re threatening policies, not because it’s a woman presenting them. I hope to tune out any commentary on gender influencing policy, and to simply look at policy alone.
                But what do I know? I’m only a man. (And white, and middle-class, middle-aged . . .)

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

That Song Makes Me Feel Good

     Although I'll do it until I've lost my mind, it's often hard to argue music due to its subjectivity. One thing everyone can agree on is we all have this sacred collection of songs that make us happy. They might not necessarily be by our favourite bands, they may or may not have nostalgic connotations, or they just might have that je ne sais quoi. These are songs we play because they always put us in a good mood. I never tire of my group .
     While sitting in a downtown coffee shop at 5:30 this morning, I scrawled a list in my journal faster than I could out-think myself. I'd love to hear yours.

1. "Glasgow Kiss" by John Petrucci. If I had an anthem, this would be it. Guitar instrumental I sing to myself when bored.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8ssuW06eoA

2. "America" Yes version of the Simon and Garfunkel classic.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdsUPaIueUw

3. "Alive" by Pearl Jam. I will never tire of thee, Stone Gossard opening.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VbhsYC4gKy4

4. "A Quick One While He's Away" by The Who, though I'm happy to hear it as performed by Green Day or My Morning Jacket.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C1ku7QNRudg

5. "Stadium Love" by Metric.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6N4a7RX5x7E&ob=av2e

6. "The Cave" by Mumford and Sons.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJcvLyoAAnk

7. "Money For Nothing" by Dire Straits. That riff, that riff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlPjxz4LGak

8. "Big Rock" by Feeding Like Butterflies, with any of my Good People screaming the "Down to Jericho" part. And it's really hard to find online.

9. "Run Runaway" by Slade. At some point in 1986, I decided that electric guitar was my favourite sound in the whole world.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJwTvBexyJM

10. "Baba O'Riley" by the Who.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8_Pf144Qmg&feature=fvst

11. "Kill My Soul" by The Catherine Wheel. I drum it on my steering wheel.

12. Symphony #9 ("Ode to Joy") by Ludwig van Beethoven. Arguably the best piece of music ever, I learned years after deciding that that Mom played it when she married Dad.

13. "Grace, Too" by the Tragically Hip.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBhDqir7UpA

14. "Army" by Ben Folds.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-7xb63OBHc

15. "J. A. R." by Green Day.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Na1c-9bm8NU

16. "Not Ready to Go" by the Trews. A song that always makes me think of the girl who would one day become my wife.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKKYhBYQ2yE

17. "Blind Faith" by Dream Theater.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kde6bb3ULyc

18. "Get Back" by the Beatles.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-XHgP2rJZhM&feature=related

19. "Rockin' In the Free World" by Neil Young. When I decided I liked head-banging.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDzL_WU3mmE&feature=related

20. "Alchemy" by Five Minute Miracle. Old Saskatoon band. Fifteen years later I still find myself whistling this riff.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Two Games and One Tattoo: Three Books


I’ll start with a disclaimer. I am not one of those annoying people who intentionally rags on what is popular. I know that glancing back through my posts it might seem that way, but it’s not. What appears below is me responding to some encounters with popular literature, and for once not trying to have my finger on the pulse.

            I don’t like not liking books. I feel guilty about it. I worry so much about dipping literacy rates that I want to believe that any reading is good reading, but I don’t always succeed.
            It’s a funny line we walk, we who work with and advocate for the written word. On one side we have our desire for people, especially kids, to be reading. On the other, our worry about the quality of what they are reading, that it is challenging. If I were a little higher up the ladder of academic pedagogy, I might be more insistent that people read literature, as opposed to fluff.

                FLUFF: Reading that does not challenge the reader’s ability. At or below the reader’s comfort level. Books found at supermarket checkouts, books that take one or two days to get through. You know when you finish a book and tell someone that it “really makes you think”? These don’t. It should be noted that all readers read fluff at some point, whether constantly, as a break, accidentally, or out of curiosity or perhaps even masochism. I read fluff. My fluff of choice is Viking fiction and the odd graphic novel.

           I like to know what the kids are reading. I like to know what the adults are reading. When it’s a title on lips and its outside the halls of academia, I like to see what all the fuss is about. I don’t like to think I’m such a stuffy critic of literature that I can’t appreciate a yarn for a yarn when it doesn’t exactly fit my high-fallootin’ expectations for quality literature. Curiosity led me to read the outstanding Harry Potter series, the transcendent Life of Pi, the challenging (given its audience) The Giver, and the fluffy Da Vinci Code. Sadly, despite the cries of my students some years ago, I could never bring myself to read Twilight, and I’m pretty sure that my life is no poorer for the oversight.
           Lately, I’ve had three encounters with popular books, books made all the more popular by their recent film connections. In each case, the book is a part of a series, where, maddeningly, advocates tell me that you just need to stick it out after the first one. Who does that? As I told a colleague recently, that’s like marrying someone after they punch you in the face on the first date.
           One of these books (A Clash of Kings) made me wish I was fifteen years younger. I won’t read its sequels, I think. One of these books (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) made me think that people are easily duped. I will likely read the second book, though, when I’m feeling fluffy. One of these books (The Hunger Games) made me angry. Seething, spitting mad. Let’s start there.

1. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
                Whenever I hear this book mentioned, whenever I hear talk of its unbelievably successful film adaptation—and keep in mind I work in a school so I hear both a lot—I want to grab the zealot and slap him. I get violent. I. Hated. This. Book.


a)      I once read a critic who said—ironically, I think it was  about a book I liked—that it’s good to hate a book now and again. That it’s cleansing. If so, then I’m downright disinfected.
b)      You may ask why I didn’t just quit reading it. I rarely drop a book (I admit, I did with #3 on this list, but special circumstances). I thought it would somehow redeem itself in the end—Harry Potter’s first book never truly cornered me until the jigsaw came together in the end. I don’t like to quit.

I went in really wanting to like this book. As with The Giver by Lois Lowry or Holes by Louis Sachar, I wanted to believe that them young ‘uns were on to something. I really wanted to see this book be good, and I hate it all the more for being so bad. It could be guilt over being duped.
Often people feel that if you don’t like a kid (or young adult) book, it’s because you expect it to be more than it was intended to be. No, I expect them, that is, the kids, to be more than that book. Excusing a bad book as “just a kids’ book” is to ignore the power of The Outsiders, Anne of Green Gables or the Narnia series. Kids are not stupid, and their books shouldn’t be either.
This is a bad book. So, so, so bad. And not done poorly, actively bad. Criminal. Vile. It’s a video game, a plot, a series of action-oriented events with next to no message sent through.
BOOM—and then—BOOM—and then—BOOM. It’s like listening to a four year old describe a roller coaster. Does the plot have twists? Sure. Do you turn the pages? Sure. Is it well-written with good characterization, clear themes, a good amount of kid-level interest and adult-level behind the scenes (hello Mr. Potter)? No, no, no and hell no.
It’s a bunch of fights. After the fights, they get stuff. Compete properly, and the Gamemasters give them gifts. I honestly was shocked that when Katniss got her first kill she didn’t Level Up. The characters have all the life of a cord of 2X4s. There is no remorse when murder is committed because Collins has copped out and created an easily-slaughtered group of nasty kids for cannon fodder. Three good, twenty-one evil. The potential of exploring twenty-four humans thrust into a “Most Dangerous Game” or Battle Royale scenario is cast off. She doesn’t even toy with making us uneasy by having good people kill other good people. The other kids are, conveniently, rotten little bastards—so we cry out for their blood. This is the novel’s greatest missed opportunity for some significant emotion, for having a real impact. For "makin' ya think."
Mind you, the whole book is a missed opportunity—the opportunity to tell a good and important story, to write a good book.
Alright, enough, I’m ranting. Cleansed, though. Let’s move on to those I feel a tad more conflicted about.

2. The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
                This is fluff, but like Dan Brown, it’s fairly well-researched fluff. Unlike Dan Brown, it’s well-researched fluff that concentrates more on its characters than pissing off the church and the Masons. Larsson knows his stuff. In the end, though, it’s still supermarket fiction.
There were a lot of variables that got to me. The book’s in translation, so many of the techniques that annoyed me might have worked differently in Swedish. For example, every description resorts to simile: “She jumped like a panther through the door that gaped like an open mouth and landed on her motorcycle which was buzzing like a bee.” It starts with forty pages of of economic history only barely connected to the main plot. It features an uncountable cast, many of whom are unimportant members of the central family, or employees of the magazine. It details Mikael Blomkvist’s every meal, drink, coffee, every character’s outfit, what novel they are reading, what movie they’re watching. Some people like that sort of thing. I found it exhausting—so, yes, it transcends fluff at times—but chacun à son goût.
The strengths of this book are its refreshing setting—all that Scandinavian-ness got me misty for the family in Norway—and of course the Girl, Lisbeth Salander. She’s a well-conceived character, although I think created by using an archetype rather than an original creation. I’ve yet to see either the Swedish or American films, but my guess is she’s better to see than to read, to watch an actor interpret than to have our mind dissect. That’s a problem when we’re talking books.
Her one major character flaw, that is, the flaw her creator has written in to her, is also the greatest flaw of the whole book: her susceptibility to the magic wand in Herr Blomkvist’s pants.
Any woman who encounters him sleeps with him (with one exception that would be a spoiler to indicate). Older woman, much younger woman, married friend with benefits, any woman that encounters this dude can’t seem to rip her clothes off fast enough. Oh, and then there’s the excusing it! Lisbeth needs to show how strong she is, the others only want him for his body, no strings attached. Larsson bombards us with rationale for all the sack-jumping. How much of this is one man’s fantasy? I mean, they’re more liberal in Sweden, but there’s a point. I find Lisbeth’s attachment to Blomkvist beyond the professional as insulting—it would’ve worked better with him as a father figure. In a book that sets up every section with a quote about abused women, presenting a smokescreen of feminism by having significant female characters, in the end, they’re still just objects. Women in this book are nymphomaniacs. If that’s not derogatory enough, a character who is good but is not great is limited by the writer’s need to get in her pants.

3. A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin
                I read the first book of the Game of Thrones (yeah, yeah, A Song of Ice and Fire) series ten years or so ago. I don’t recall liking or disliking it, but I think it’s telling enough that I stopped there. Maybe it was just a break from university reading. Then, last year I watched the television series, and it worked its magic on me too. I committed the crime of reading a book after seeing the adaption, but worse. Reading the sequel book after seeing the original a-film.
                I quit pretty quickly. For a series of books, Martin’s tale makes a helluva TV series. The TV series cuts out the excess. Much of his writing strikes me as filler, a need to balance all characters when only a few of them matter much, and the rest we could just get updates on.
                The number of points of view is maddening for this reason. So many characters to keep track of, so many threads of narrative. Many of them are unneeded. After we spend a chapter inside a character’s head (or beside it, this being third person subjective), we wonder if he just wrote the chapter to see what it was like to be inside a certain character’s head, because often nothing is done to advance the narrative. The TV series retains only that which matters and—it irks me to say—is better for it.
                My biggest beef isn’t the series’ fault, it’s with all alternate-world fantasy written by anyone whose first name isn’t J.R.R. I gape in awe at the detail and planning in creating religions, politics, cultures, histories, and I say, “All to cheat.” It’s all done out of a need to control a world rather than work with the one we’ve got. I’ve come to see the so-called High Fantasy as a lazy man’s history.

Two all-encompassers.
A)     Anyone who loves these books tells me that they get better after the first one. Are we that series-mad, has Hollywood ingrained in us a need so desperate for sequels, prequels and (in Spider-Man’s case) requels that it’s now a forgone conclusion that you read beyond a first book even if you didn’t like it? I’ll try something completely new and hope it’s good over something I know was bad, thank you very much.
B)      I’ve heard Hunger Games and Tattoo lauded for their strong female leads, and if you don’t like them you’re a chauvinist by implication. Heard the same thing about Twilight. Bull. I don’t know Twilight, having neither read nor seen, but I have been given a gist, and the gist tells me that the message is a young woman should define herself completely by her boyfriend, do whatever he needs, that he is the scope and the limit of her identity. Wholesome.
I’ve already debunked the feminism in Tattoo. Game of Thrones, like most post-Tolkien nerd-feasts, has men in primary roles and women as a place for these tough guys to put their penises. Even Daenays Targaryan, the one strong female lead, takes her place by opening her legs. As for The Hunger Games’s Katniss, yes, she’s fairly strong and keeps her undies on. But she defines herself by her male relationships (Daddy, Cinna, Haymitch, Gale and especially Peeta). She despises older women and she pities younger girls. She’s not a strong female character, there isn’t anything feminine about her, and I don’t care that the author’s a woman. Katniss is sexless. A few quick alterations, with only a stumble at the contrived “romance” plot, and she could be a boy with no real change in the tale. That sucks. You want to show me a strong female lead, show me a lead that’s female, not one who is “just as strong at boy things.” Show me a woman who is a woman and good at it. Like Lisbeth Salander before she swan-dives into Blomkvist’s sheets.
These books are no victories for feminism. They cloud womanhood by saying a strong woman is one who craves sex like a man, or hunts and shoots like a man.

I will likely read the second Girl book when I need a break. I may someday think Thrones is worth a read, but that’s not likely if the show stays good. As for Collins’ series—girl on fire? I’d burn the whole book. If nothing else, we have reaffirmed that success is not a mark of quality.